Just some ramble. It's funny how little people read this blog, but it's so much fun, and most of the people that read...ALL of the people that read aren't from Brisbane. Sometimes the past seems so far away, and everything is slipping out, but then some things just bring you back into reality.
It's kind of hard to make decisions, I'm always the one sitting on the fence, just going with the general opinion. But when the decision concerns only me....it's hard to stay on the fence. When something's there, right out of your reach, will you jump for it, or wait for it to come to you? I guess maybe I'm kind of selfish, since I'm not really much of a jumper. But then, it's painful to see it see that you're not going for it, and it decides to leave. The question of "Would I have got it if I had jumped for it? Or would I have fallen and lost what I already had, and what I could have had?" What's even worse is when you can see it coming; the first time, you don't jump, and it's gone. The second time, you expect it to go...so you don't jump...and so it leaves.
Whoaa, end of week three already!! REALITY CHECK TIME - - - in other words, time to get a year calendar, and that's exactly what I did. I went all the way to the Kelvin Grove campus to print off a year calendar on A2 so I could tack it to my wall (along with all my posters), but when I got there, I was told it would be $10 to print anything on A2, whether it be a multicoloured, fit-inducing poster for rainbow pot or a 50px by 50px dot in the centre. Well, I thought I'd go along and do it anyway, but it turns out they only print A2 on the other campus. So I left and went back to the city and went to Officeworks instead. (Is there a Officeworks in Melb/Perth? If not, it's basically a huge store that sells all type of stuff like stationary, filing folders, notebooks, whiteboards, desks, chairs, printers, and all other stuff to do with Office i suppose), and they didn't print A2 at all! So in the end I printed half the calendar on A3 and the other half on A3 for 16c only, and taped them together on my wall. It's very usefull, and I think everyone should get one ^________^
Well, this week has kind of slumped into subconscious procrastination, but I got my first team assignment. I was kind of left with the leftovers of the class, but at least it was only the second-worst group, and not the worst group ^^"?
Yaaay, another week is over. But when you think about it, is it a good thing or a bad thing? Sometimes it scares me when I go to my instrument lesson on Saturday, when it only feels like the day before I had gone for my previous lesson, and I briefly wonder what I had accomplished in the days in between the two lessons. When I think about it, not a lot really. Sometimes I think life is about doing as little work as possible, but then you have to cover up the fact that you haven't worked, and sometimes that can be even more tiring than doing it. We go through the steps of school and all those, and it's up to us to fill our days with tasks of our liking, I suppose that's what the entertainment industry is there for.
Recently my taste in music and art have been swerving towards a more traditional time. Just the sound of Princess Mononoke makes me feel so touched. There's a sense of bliss in the place I can see only in my mind, that no one else can even imagine the edges of. A place of contentment. If there was to be a god, that would be my paradise. Sometimes I feel so frustrated with myself, because I want to be able to do everything, but I have to undertake the journey to reach it.
But no matter how much I strive for that far-fetched place, it comforts me also to see the material things around me right now; my room, books, computer, sticker photos. The material things make me complacent, while I want to keep on wanting, and not waiting.
