Around after highschool everyone was celebrating that they had finally escaped prison and could roam the big, wide world. Around that time I was still struggling to choose my uni course, and was juggling a few options. I did apply for Environmental Engineering at Melbourne but eventually chickened out as the deadline drew closer, and ended up doing Business and IT in Brisbane. But after a semester, realised it wasn't exactly what I expected it to be, and dropped IT cos you couldn't join a double degree in half-year. And then at the start of this year picked up Creative Industries, but now I'm thinking of changing to Interior Design or something.
I think the problem is that I have too many broad interests, and I didn't know which one I wanted to focus on and expand. These two years of uni seems more like a test run, a long seminar on what I should do in my life, and as I've done a few more things, seen more, learnt more, went from 16 to 18, I think I've got a better idea now. There was a bit of family pressure when I said to my sister and dad that I wanted to do Interior Design, that they'd support my decision, but I shouldn't change courses again cos I'd never graduate. I think that they're kinda annoyed I didn't research this properly before I enrolled, but it had never occurred to me that I actually wanted to study Interior Design or alike until I had done my Business courses.
The inherent problem with me is that I want to do everything at once, and end up doing nothing at all. I don't have a very strong grasp of time (including time management) and I feel like I'm wasting the time I have away if I'm not doing everything I want to do, but I have so many interests I never prioritised them, I just ended up picking something cos I couldn't choose between them. But now I'm thinking - I'm 18 this year, I'm still young, in two years I'll be 20, and what can I have done by the time I'm 20? I'm never one for setting goals, but it gives me something to do now, rather than wishfully thinking I wish I could do something, and not acting towards it. When the average Australian life span is about 60-70 years, that means I'm only in the 25-30% of my whole life.
So I'm going to finish this degree, and find a job in the advertising industry. Earn some money to pay for my next set of tuition fees, where I can study Interior Design or something like it, and eventually move into that industry. Meanwhile, be more proactive in finding another job where I can get more bar experience, while at home I'm going to buy my own mixing set and wallpaper my room with cocktail/drinks preparation instructions so I can learn them myself. I think I'm a bit happier now that I know what I like and what I want to be doing, as well as more focused. If something else crops up that I want to do, even if it's not what I planned it to be right now, then so be it I'll follow it to the end.
And when I'm 20, hopefully I can say to you guys, hey look, I've got a degree that's gonna set me on my road, I've got good opportunities ahead of me, and I'm a bartender in my spare time, I'm still spending a lot of time with friends, and I'm loving what I'm doing.
